her world

on friday i went shoppin and J bought me my N.U.M top (: yay. it is truly nice and so sweet. and i bought undies for myself. a funky girl boxer and this g-string thing with some taxi print on top with the top saying pick me up. i couldnt get my eyes off it. yupps, aftwhich i went over to J's aunt's place to play mahjong. this reminds me of my mahjong session that me and my girls have been talking abt, which hasnt taken place at all yet. hmmm.

the sudden feel that we're in separate worlds, unable to bring across each of our thoughts to each other, leaving each other out of our comfort zones. so unlike how we were a few months back. is he really the reason? even if so, there is a way to solve all this. the sudden silent moments i have together with you further reminds and promises me that there really is a gap between us. can we fight it? if so, will it be a Pyrrhic victory if our friendship survives this he obstacle?

tmr dad will be handing over his company. even the car has been taken away alr. so he is officially jobless. i hope he wont stay jobless for long. this whole thing sucks. it impacts me in a seemingly minor way. but actually it is pretty major.

i jus hope that when im going thru all this, i still have my friends, a happy family and my J. but somehow, i feel like ive lost one of my three priorities which all hold the same position in my heart. everyone's busy when im free. when im busy, everyone's free. and then this depends on the choices i choose to make. so lets hope the next weekend will be a happy occasion.. i miss my friends alot.

i'd be accompanying elaine for shoppin tmr. i thought that since....

i think in each of our lifes we have a sword of Domacles.
although i always seem to be in a secure position, having everything in my life going well and being smooth sailing but i keep feeling that there is a sword of Domacles hanging over my head. it signifies any imminent danger that could happen. sigh.